Donna ‘Black-Cat’ Bugat: The Black Madonna of Montserrat ‘made’ in Jerusalem & patron ‘saint’ of Catalonia & Schrodinger Cat’s life of exile (22.10.2019)
I have lived the life of a real converso and perpetual exile in our times, purely because I am a ‘mixed’ race Catalan Italian British Australian, born during the Franco era when he was Europe’s favourite military dictator who got away with it all.
… Schrodinger’s Cat… a child who has their identity stolen from them… starts out as an exile…
Politicians cynically only relatively recently ‘recognised’ people they wishfully labeled the ‘forgotten’ children, although I clearly was far from forgotten because I remember, I was in Parliament Square, Central London, when they ‘remembered’.
Any responsible adult would know, when I was placed in the ’state care’ of the highest echelons of the British & Australian intelligence services who posed as my parents & god parents, to cruelly completely change my true identity, that they were effectively holding me as a child prisoner. They caused numerous losses that were intended to cause serious permanent harm. My true identity was changed because there were no legal grounds to stop me going home.
They always intended to cause me harm, by making me a Schrodinger’s Cat who ‘exists’ while at... the same time politicians et al claim/ed our... true identities don’t exist.
My experience of being oppressed by ‘white privilege’ happened because white privilege has never ‘allowed’ me to balance my life with my full cultural heritage including and celebrating being Catalan Italian too.
A ‘mixed’ race child was often told they had ‘bad blood’ which was used to play the blame game for any completely natural refusal to wholly ‘assimilate’. There was a brutal form of ’nurture’ to try and produce a universal elite ‘Delta force’ soldier, but instead they naturally got Donna, a universal peacenik.
The true ‘natural’ human state is to live autonomously within a functioning legal system.
... rosa black madonna...
The ‘Whites Only’ Australia I grew up in as a child used casual racism to call Italians wogs & dagos and even as an adult, many decades later, their still flawed legislation (they really did ‘forget’ to mention existed) incredibly claims I need to as an adult to continue the ordeal, by ‘needing’ the ‘permission’ that could not possibly be refused of a judge in a County ‘Family’ Court, to reclaim my true identity !!
The legislation reverses the norms of civil procedure, because it is self evident the real truth is politicians et al did not want the (for example) intelligence services cross-examined on a witness stand before a civil jury, because they made their own ‘informed decisions’ when they were adults.
My own childhood was cruelly closed off from any connection to anything Italian and of course Catalans are never mentioned in Australia because of the colonial Treaty of Utrecht and all that has gone before and after.
The Bugat family who have historically lived all around the Mediterranean in the mountain and valley regions and through Eastern Europe to the Central Asian steppes are & have been Jewish, Catholic and Muslim.
The cynical British betrayal of Catalans in 1704 which in reality continued a centuries old royal and religious pattern of persecution, reversed the long history of Mediterranean thalassocracies including the Phoenician Purple people. The global British colonial ‘diaspora’ including other European countries, that then led to the Holocaust in Europe was built from the Treaty of Utrecht.
The origin of the Holocaust was the Albigensian Crusade ostensibly against Cathars, in the same region, which was really a war against against Christendom, paradoxically proving what Cathars, who represented real autonomy compared to the Popes & Caliphates et al, said. Pope Benedict XII was made the Pope after he arrested the entire village of Montaillou in the Cathar stronghold of the Ariege in 1318 in the Pyrenees, over a century… after the Crusade, which was really a brutal military takeover, had begun. The original Avignon Papacy ‘married’ into the Bugat family.
The Mediterranean continued to be divided in same manner in Piedmont and the Dolomites in Italy and so on in always changing ‘borders’.
... rosa black madonna in the popular rose garden in the st. kilda botanical garden...
The Florentine Dante, lived in the same time as the people in the (now French) village in Montaillou, and wrote his famous poem, which is acknowledged as the father of the Italian language, to arguably describe his own exile as an ‘afterlife’. He described Pope Clemens V as the “lawless shepherd from the west” in the continuing war between the Black & White Guelphs at that same time.
A defenceless child who has their true identity stolen from them… starts out in life as an exile.
The legend of the Black Madonna which has lived throughout history to include the ‘weeping’ woman/women of Tammuz (el-Bugat) in Babylonia includes the Kassite Kings etc, while of course all Abrahamic religions have venerated royalty.
... rosa aotearoa & co...
The best I can personally do to try and create a balance where none has existed in my own life, is by peacefully connecting cultural worlds so it is possible for me to enjoy being Catalan and Italian too, while choosing my own religion, all of which would mean I was no longer an exile in and from 'different worlds'.
I have never personally experienced what life, not being an exile, or “other” is like.